[00:08.36] I don't owe you my heart
[00:12.17] And I don't owe you my body
[00:16.23] But you should know that I'm sorry
[00:20.16] For being careless with you
[00:24.04] Lord knows I owe you more
[00:28.13] Than I'm pretty sure I ever could give anybody
[00:32.14] But I can't pin down what normal people want from foreign objects
[00:36.11] Bottom shelf erotic products like me
[00:40.30] So, I could hold your hand but keep you at arm's length
[00:45.52] Or hang me from a branch too high to climb and shake
[00:49.53] Less rare than scarce, less diamond than rough
[00:53.64] Unlikely to be more than just the coal you fail to crush, and
[00:58.30] I swear, I'm really trying
[01:12.58] It just don't come natural to me to think that you'd want me for me
[01:18.07] I swear, I'm really trying
[01:28.76] Oh, I'm sorry, I promise, I'm doing my best
[01:33.30] I just haven't learned how to be human as you are yet
[01:46.33] I still don't know who you are
[01:50.14] I only know that I'm still lonely
[01:54.16] That morbid sort where even company can't cure me
[01:57.30] And the more you reassure, the less I trust
[02:02.19] But still you gave me your heart
[02:05.81] I only gave you my body
[02:10.59] Honestly thought nobody'd want it, let alone notice it's gone
[02:14.17] And so I left it home, but now, now, now, now
[02:19.04] I keep a locket with a picture of the back of my head
[02:23.29] Oh, monkey-wrench my side view mirrors, ghost my friends
[02:27.59] I've lived more lives than enough, I haven't died quite as much
[02:31.13] But I'm not a real person, just the shit you can't make up, and
[02:36.21] I swear, I'm really trying
[02:46.67] I'm just as exposed if I take off my clothes
[02:50.29] When we make the closest thing to love that I'm capable of
[02:55.47] And I don't know why you would care
[03:01.99] But I'm really trying
[03:06.65] Oh, I'm sorry, I promise, I'm doing my best
[03:11.50] I just haven't learned how to be human as you are yet
[03:33.81] Did I really have any of that gravity?
[03:39.69] Maybe you're quicksand
[03:41.32] Because I really couldn't tell
[03:43.02] How deep my footprints went
[03:45.31] The vertex of my redemption arc
[03:47.84] The searching on that virgin heart
[03:49.75] I'm catatonic in your arms
[03:51.71] Crying, "How did I cause so much harm?"
[03:53.43] I'm down pounding my head against the kitchen floor
[03:57.23] Apologizing for my life and ever entering yours
[04:01.16] Don't say "I'm sorry, but this can't go on"
[04:03.42] I know you've got scars of your own
[04:05.96] But hide my knives before you go
[04:07.90] I'll either live or die alone
[04:22.89] I'm still in the process, but I'm making progress
[04:26.26] I promise, I honestly wanna prove improvement's possible
[04:32.19] I swear, I'm so fucking sorry
[04:42.80] I'm not a good person, I'm barely a person at all
[04:47.06] But someday I'll be perfect, and I'll make up for it all
[04:52.44] And write a fucking song about it, cause
[04:54.54] God damn it
[04:57.05] Sorry
[04:58.95] Fuck, I'm sorry
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